Gabe sighs, mostly at the regrettable fact that he's wide awake. He lets his eyes close again though, enjoying the way Caleb's fingers card through his hair.

"Because I don't know how to...be like this," he says quietly. With his eyes still closed, it feels like confessing with a screen to block the priest. Only it's Caleb and he knows all of this maybe better than Gabe does himself.

"To be..." Gabe still can't let himself say the word. To say that he's homosexual. Gay. Not attracted to women. It's even harder letting himself believe that he's not damned for eternity.