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Caleb Peterson ([personal profile] freefromsin) wrote2015-09-03 10:16 pm

(Closed to Gabe - Sirens Gone Wild plot~)

Caleb wakes up with the overwhelming feeling that he needs to see Gabe.

It's one step away from thinking Gabe is in trouble, that urgent. There's no explanation, but the panic, the desperation, the longing are a physical ache in his chest that's impossible to ignore. He scrambles from bed, pulling on shoes while stumbling for the bathroom to take a quick piss. He manages a five second teeth brushing, but doesn't bother with his hair. He went to bed in cotton shorts and a tank top and he figures he's dressed well enough, he doesn't have time to change, he has to go.

He slips quickly and silently out of the house. It's pouring but that doesn't stop him from sprinting down the driveway to the sidewalk. It's a brisk five or ten minute jog to Mira's house, and surely the most exercise he's had in awhile, but he hardly notices. He's panting and drenched by the time he reaches their block. Shivering, he rubs a frantic hand over the back of his neck; it's early and he doesn't want to piss Mira's family off by knocking at the door and potentially waking anyone up, but he needs Gabe. Gabe needs him, he just knows it.

After some manic pacing in front of Mira's house, he finally walks to the porch and gives a determined knock. Or two.

...Three when no one answers right away.
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-13 07:00 am (UTC)(link)
"I really hope you don't cuddle your brother like this," Gabe says, letting himself press closer, inviting Caleb to wrap his arms around him again. Gabe feels warm and safe against Caleb, his friend, his something more, maybe. He doesn't know if he's ready to put it in words, even if his feelings are clearly happy to run away with him.
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-13 07:15 am (UTC)(link)
Gabe sighs, mostly at the regrettable fact that he's wide awake. He lets his eyes close again though, enjoying the way Caleb's fingers card through his hair.

"Because I don't know how to...be like this," he says quietly. With his eyes still closed, it feels like confessing with a screen to block the priest. Only it's Caleb and he knows all of this maybe better than Gabe does himself.

"To be..." Gabe still can't let himself say the word. To say that he's homosexual. Gay. Not attracted to women. It's even harder letting himself believe that he's not damned for eternity.
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-13 04:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Gabe takes a second. How can one word, one syllable carry so much weight? It takes a long moment before he can finally nod, still unready to acknowledge the word with a spoken response. He just nods once under Caleb's hand, enjoying the warm touch.

"I'm still having a hard time...letting myself be anything."
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-14 01:47 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm trying not to, anymore. I'm trying." He sighs and turns his head a little so that he can enjoy the gentle touch. So that he can let himself.
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-14 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
Gabe smiles a tiny bit at that, though the expression is still tinged with a little sadness because he doesn't think he knows how to be happy. Not without conditions.

If Caleb knows, maybe he can show him.

"I like that. With my hair."
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-14 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
"Simple pleasures," he supposes and that draws a proper smile out of him. "Hair pets? Good friends?"

Sometimes, he worries that Caleb will realize he doesn't deserve him as a friend, much less anything else.
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-14 04:15 pm (UTC)(link)
He smiles shyly, hopefully, and reaches up to lay his hand on top of Caleb's, their fingers tangling just a little.

"Thank you for finding me."
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-15 03:03 am (UTC)(link)
He feels found in more than one way. Not just retrieved but a little more safe as himself. Caleb so close makes him easy to want and the temptation to kiss him is so palpable, but he still fears what he might do.

"I just don't want to do something that hurts you accidentally."
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-15 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
"If I leave, I'll tell you." Not that he plans to leave. Gabe thinks that if he ever moved somewhere, Siren Cove would inspire the homesickness that his family home doesn't. He'd miss Mira and Finn, even the work at the pub that leaves his hands raw and rough.

Shyly, Gabe moves a few inches closer, close enough for a kiss he's not brave enough to ask for.
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-15 03:41 am (UTC)(link)
Yes and please are such simple sounds and yet so difficult to say. Quietly, Gabe nods, his eyes meeting Caleb and he waits, holding his breath.
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-15 03:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Gabe's chest thuds with nervousness, with anticipation. There's still fear, but it has nothing to do with Caleb. He doesn't know how to kiss, not really, hasn't kissed anyone before or since Caleb. He isn't like Joel and Spencer or Finn or Davin; he's nothing but clumsy and shy. Inexperienced.

Caleb might laugh at him and Gabe wouldn't even think him wrong for it.

But Caleb's not laughing, or making any noise at all. He's pressed so lightly against Gabe that it's almost impossible to believe it's happening. This is it, he realizes. This is a kiss. The gesture isn't scary or shameful. It's just a kiss. Gabe feels warm all over, safe instead of scared.

Uncertain, he inclines his head a little so that the connection is more real, more firm.
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-16 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
"You're the only person I've ever kissed," Gabe whispers. He keeps his eyes closed so he can just revel in their shared warmth. Vaguely, in the distance, he can hear Mira and her family stirring, but he doesn't want to get up.

Laughing softly, relieved at how easy and safe it feels. "I'm not sneaking you out Mira's window."
Edited 2015-09-16 02:01 (UTC)
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[personal profile] overdrawing 2015-09-16 03:28 am (UTC)(link)
No, Gabe realizes, shaking his head slowly. It occurs to him just then that that isn't what he's concerned over. "Just worried it'd be rude, inviting you over when I'm their guest," he admits shyly.

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