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Caleb wakes up with the overwhelming feeling that he needs to see Gabe.

It's one step away from thinking Gabe is in trouble, that urgent. There's no explanation, but the panic, the desperation, the longing are a physical ache in his chest that's impossible to ignore. He scrambles from bed, pulling on shoes while stumbling for the bathroom to take a quick piss. He manages a five second teeth brushing, but doesn't bother with his hair. He went to bed in cotton shorts and a tank top and he figures he's dressed well enough, he doesn't have time to change, he has to go.

He slips quickly and silently out of the house. It's pouring but that doesn't stop him from sprinting down the driveway to the sidewalk. It's a brisk five or ten minute jog to Mira's house, and surely the most exercise he's had in awhile, but he hardly notices. He's panting and drenched by the time he reaches their block. Shivering, he rubs a frantic hand over the back of his neck; it's early and he doesn't want to piss Mira's family off by knocking at the door and potentially waking anyone up, but he needs Gabe. Gabe needs him, he just knows it.

After some manic pacing in front of Mira's house, he finally walks to the porch and gives a determined knock. Or two.

...Three when no one answers right away.

Date: 2015-09-12 05:39 am (UTC)
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Gabe nods against his neck. Even for his sleepy, foggy brain, Caleb's scent pokes at important and powerful memories but the edge of them is blunted by how comfortable and warm it is. "You were supposed to sleep in the bed," he reminds him, clearly on the reluctant path to waking even though Gabe keeps his eyes closed.

"Are you warm?" Gabe feels warm and surprisingly safe.

Date: 2015-09-13 06:27 am (UTC)
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Despite his best attempts to stay asleep, Gabe finds himself floating closer to being awake. If this weren't so comfortable, he might be grumpier about it. "Otters hold hands when they sleep to keep from floating apart," he says, sighing a little. It sounds like such a nice, simple gesture.

"This should feel wrong."

Date: 2015-09-13 06:41 am (UTC)
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"You know why." Gabe squeezes their hands together and opens his eyes, the motion sleepy and reluctant, even if he recognizes the seriousness of what they're discussing. Because they were, not so long ago, Good Faithful Boys. And, not so long ago, this is exactly the thing that sent Gabe running away in terror.

Date: 2015-09-13 07:00 am (UTC)
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"I really hope you don't cuddle your brother like this," Gabe says, letting himself press closer, inviting Caleb to wrap his arms around him again. Gabe feels warm and safe against Caleb, his friend, his something more, maybe. He doesn't know if he's ready to put it in words, even if his feelings are clearly happy to run away with him.

Date: 2015-09-13 07:15 am (UTC)
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Gabe sighs, mostly at the regrettable fact that he's wide awake. He lets his eyes close again though, enjoying the way Caleb's fingers card through his hair.

"Because I don't know how to...be like this," he says quietly. With his eyes still closed, it feels like confessing with a screen to block the priest. Only it's Caleb and he knows all of this maybe better than Gabe does himself.

"To be..." Gabe still can't let himself say the word. To say that he's homosexual. Gay. Not attracted to women. It's even harder letting himself believe that he's not damned for eternity.

Date: 2015-09-13 04:59 pm (UTC)
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Gabe takes a second. How can one word, one syllable carry so much weight? It takes a long moment before he can finally nod, still unready to acknowledge the word with a spoken response. He just nods once under Caleb's hand, enjoying the warm touch.

"I'm still having a hard time...letting myself be anything."

Date: 2015-09-14 01:47 am (UTC)
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"I'm trying not to, anymore. I'm trying." He sighs and turns his head a little so that he can enjoy the gentle touch. So that he can let himself.

Date: 2015-09-14 03:52 am (UTC)
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Gabe smiles a tiny bit at that, though the expression is still tinged with a little sadness because he doesn't think he knows how to be happy. Not without conditions.

If Caleb knows, maybe he can show him.

"I like that. With my hair."

Date: 2015-09-14 04:50 am (UTC)
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"Simple pleasures," he supposes and that draws a proper smile out of him. "Hair pets? Good friends?"

Sometimes, he worries that Caleb will realize he doesn't deserve him as a friend, much less anything else.

Date: 2015-09-14 04:15 pm (UTC)
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He smiles shyly, hopefully, and reaches up to lay his hand on top of Caleb's, their fingers tangling just a little.

"Thank you for finding me."

Date: 2015-09-15 03:03 am (UTC)
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He feels found in more than one way. Not just retrieved but a little more safe as himself. Caleb so close makes him easy to want and the temptation to kiss him is so palpable, but he still fears what he might do.

"I just don't want to do something that hurts you accidentally."

Date: 2015-09-15 03:29 am (UTC)
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"If I leave, I'll tell you." Not that he plans to leave. Gabe thinks that if he ever moved somewhere, Siren Cove would inspire the homesickness that his family home doesn't. He'd miss Mira and Finn, even the work at the pub that leaves his hands raw and rough.

Shyly, Gabe moves a few inches closer, close enough for a kiss he's not brave enough to ask for.

Date: 2015-09-15 03:41 am (UTC)
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Yes and please are such simple sounds and yet so difficult to say. Quietly, Gabe nods, his eyes meeting Caleb and he waits, holding his breath.

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